Thin Like Paper

Aw SHIT

2010-11-29T11:51:00.001-08:00

I just ate an oreo. I know it's not THAT bad but I still feel shitty. 70 calories....makes my total so far 310/800 siiiigh.

Reasons Why

2010-11-29T06:57:00.000-08:00

Okay. I am obsessed with the number 4 so here are my 44 reasons why I'm doing this.

So when I sit, my stomach won't....fold. It'll be a perfect board.
So that my boyfriend won't be the small, skinny one in our relationship.
So that my boyfriend will be proud to be seen with me.
So that my boyfriend will be able to pick me up without strain and twirl me around.
So I'll look good in everything.
So I can fit into my old skinny jeans and Domo shirt.
So I can be like the skinny, solitary heroine in the stories.
So I won't have to try on a thousand outfits and looking fat in all of them.
I want a space between my legs.
If my shirt is pulled up some how, you won't see a flabby stomach, but a flat, firm one.
So that my boyfriend won't be able to really poke me.
I want to see my hipbones.
I want to see my ribs.
I want to see my cheek bones.
I will look like a model even in black cargos and a sweat shirt.
So I can wear short skirts, cool tights, and boots without looking like a cow.
So that it's impossible, no matter how I turn or press down, I don't have a second chin.
So people comment on how skinny I've gotten behind my back.
So my collarbones are REALLY prominent.
So my shoulder bones are freaky.
So belts don't leave a red imprint on my hips.
So I can wear Size 0.
I can sneak around like a cat.
So I can be delicate and graceful.
So I can dance around people without looking like a fatty idiot.
So I can be skinnier and prettier than my skinny friends.
So I'll be remembered as the skinny one.
So I can start wearing bathing suits again.
So I can wear shorts without getting embarrassed.
So my siblings won't call me fat.
So my "friend" won't call me fat.
So my willpower and control with be evident.
So I could model if I want.
So guys I hate will like me, ask me out, and then I can deny them in an awesome way.
Other girls like me will look up to me.
No one wants a FAT daughter, sister, friend, girlfriend.
So my arm flab won't spread out when I press my arms to my sides.
So I don't have any arm flab AT ALL.
So I will have slender fingers.
So I can be like Audrey Hepburn.
So I will look beautiful in a dress with the wind blowing around me.
So I can run faster.
So I can try on clothes at stores without feeling like shit.
Because EVERYTHING will be so much better when I'm thin.

An Introduction of Sorts

2010-11-29T06:22:00.000-08:00

Hey there. I made this blog because well one I'm trying to avoid the food calling out to me from the cabinet and two because I need the have somewhere to post my thoughts, post the lovely pictures I find, the videos, and you know whatever. I think it'll keep me motivated to lose.
So let me show you what my regime is going to be for a month or 2.

Morning
Wake up at about 5:30am or 6:00am
Do required amount of sit-ups and push-ups for that month (add 100 sit-ups each month and 25 push-ups each month)
Take a shower, dry hair, straighten hair, eyeliner, make up, etc.
Get dressed
Have either 2 pieces of toast with nothing on them or 1 piece with jelly.

Afternoon
If at school, eat some grapes or strawberries or nothing.
For lunch at mom's, eat baby carrots with mustard and celery. Maybe some grapes....

Evening
Have a few crackers and a Laughing Cow cheese triangle and some grapes
Do the same amount of morning sit-ups and push-ups and maybe go to the park and jog around the track for half and hour

I think that sounds like a good plan? I'll check the calories tomorrow and figure out how much I'll burn and that will show how many calories I'll be consuming. :) Sweet, well I think I'm going to post some pictures and a journal type thing and then going to establish myself on youtube and livejournal and then I'm going to bed.