Reasons Why

Okay.  I am obsessed with the number 4 so here are my 44 reasons why I'm doing this.

1. So when I sit, my stomach won't....fold.  It'll be a perfect board.
2. So that my boyfriend won't be the small, skinny one in our relationship.
3. So that my boyfriend will be proud to be seen with me.
4. So that my boyfriend will be able to pick me up without strain and twirl me around.
5. So I'll look good in everything.
6. So I can fit into my old skinny jeans and Domo shirt.
7. So I can be like the skinny, solitary heroine in the stories.
8. So I won't have to try on a thousand outfits and looking fat in all of them.
9. I want a space between my legs.
10. If my shirt is pulled up some how, you won't see a flabby stomach, but a flat, firm one.
11. So that my boyfriend won't be able to really poke me.
12. I want to see my hipbones.
13. I want to see my ribs.
14. I want to see my cheek bones.
15. I will look like a model even in black cargos and a sweat shirt.
16. So I can wear short skirts, cool tights, and boots without looking like a cow.
17. So that it's impossible, no matter how I turn or press down, I don't have a second chin.
18. So people comment on how skinny I've gotten behind my back.
19. So my collarbones are REALLY prominent.
20. So my shoulder bones are freaky.
21. So belts don't leave a red imprint on my hips.
22. So I can wear Size 0.
23. I can sneak around like a cat.
24. So I can be delicate and graceful.
25. So I can dance around people without looking like a fatty idiot.
26. So I can be skinnier and prettier than my skinny friends.
27. So I'll be remembered as the skinny one.
28. So I can start wearing bathing suits again.
29. So I can wear shorts without getting embarrassed.
30. So my siblings won't call me fat.
31. So my "friend" won't call me fat.
32. So my willpower and control with be evident.
33. So I could model if I want.
34. So guys I hate will like me, ask me out, and then I can deny them in an awesome way.
35. Other girls like me will look up to me.
36. No one wants a FAT daughter, sister, friend, girlfriend.
37. So my arm flab won't spread out when I press my arms to my sides.
38. So I don't have any arm flab AT ALL.
39. So I will have slender fingers.
40. So I can be like Audrey Hepburn.
41. So I will look beautiful in a dress with the wind blowing around me.
42. So I can run faster.
43. So I can try on clothes at stores without feeling like shit.
44. Because EVERYTHING will be so much better when I'm thin.